My long overdue APOLOGY and Thank you letter to you

I know what I’m gonna say won’t make any difference anymore
I know you are happy and I am glad that you are
I just have to get all these things off my chest
I just had to let you know
I just want you to know how sorry and thankful I am

Sorry I destroyed the portrait of me you drew. I was scared. You captured me so well I didn’t know how I’d feel. If I can go back in time I’ll pick them from the trash and keep it.

Sorry, as there are a lot of things you did for me that my memory doesn’t seem to remember for some odd reason

I’m sorry my memory seemed to have forgotten that you wanted to get back with me when we were in HS, if my bff didn’t tell me it would have been probably lost forever

I’m sorry I didn’t notice you in the computer shop, I didn’t know it was you. It was blurred from my memory. If my mom hadn’t tell me about it I guess I will never know you were there

I’m sorry I did not get to hear your birthday greeting for me on the radio, I don’t know why I didn’t hear it, but if they didn’t tell me they heard it your efforts would have gone to waste

I’m sorry for all the times I pretended I am drunk so that you will take care of me. I wanted to feel that I still matter to you, it somehow felt so true

Sorry for breaking up with you, I may have regretted that decision but I am glad I did it. I grew up, we grew up.

Sorry that I still feel this way towards you.
Sorry that I am still madly in love with you.
I’m sorry and thank you.

I am not sorry I kissed you though, I wanted to know how your lips taste like and yes I wanted more than a smack on the lips. It is something I would definitely not apologize for.

Thank you for giving in to my mom’s brocolli request, I appreciated it so much.

Thank you for giving into my whims, sometimes.

Thank you for all the songs and anime you recommended to me.

Thank you for the long walks and the chats we’ve had no matter how insignificant it maybe. I valued every minute of it.

Thank you for the portrait, the efforts and the radio greeting even if I didn’t get to hear it personally, I appreciated all of them.

Thank you for the roses, they were the first and only flowers I received my whole life that I din’t have to ask for.

Thank for the lots of kisses (chocolate) you gave me. They are the grandest gift I have received that is not from Mari.

Thank you for hurting me unknowingly or knowingly, it somehow made me strong.

Thank you for being a part of my life, somehow.


Oh, thank you for my nickname, I loved it and I still do.




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